Reality

When you come home at the end of a night to an empty home and no one to greet you, reality can really set in. I just went on a "date" with my precious 4 year old daughter. We went to dinner and to see Tangled (great movie by the way). We have a special connection and we talked and laughed and really enjoyed each others company. She told me that even when she is big enough to be a babysitter and a mommy she will always be my little girl :) It was a very special night. But coming home to an empty house is very hard. No matter what, the reality of what has happened is waiting for me every night I walk through the door. Every morning I wake up it is there waiting for me to remind me of what I have lost. Every waking hour, my mind haunts me with reality.

I'm not trying to be a downer by saying this but more than anything I am trying to face reality with the best attitude I can. My reality is something I can't change right now. The only thing I can do is take life one day at a time and try my hardest to make the most of it. If I can consistently make good choices and have true change in my heart, my reality will get better. Our actions determine our destiny. The Lord is eager to bless those that are obedient, even when our decisions in the past have been contrary to his law. We are allowed to suffer consequences so that we will learn and grow how we need to. And if we truly want to change, it will become our reality.

Sometimes it is hard to overcome the feelings of loneliness. Being alone can be one of the most challenging experiences in life. Especially when people you love are no longer with you. You really have to try and focus on feeling the Lord's love in your life and searching out his blessings. We are never alone and this I am sure of. The Lord is very active in your life. The adversary is very active as well so it is so important we keep our minds and hearts fixed on Savior and his teachings.

There are so many things I wish I could say or do that would immediately change my reality. So many things I want to say to people I love. How I wish I could have certain people see into my heart. But I have to trust in the Lord and do everything I can to make my reality the best it can be. I believe that if we want something bad enough and if we work hard enough for it, it will become our reality.

The struggles along the way will shape us into the people we want to be.