Time

This weekend I came down to St. George with my sister and her family. I brought Hallie and Ty with me. It has been enjoyable so far, especially for the kids. The kids and I have really been able to bond lately and they are a great strength to me. Obviously, I have put them in a very confusing situation and they have been handling it amazingly well. I am just trying to be the best I can be as a father and I am praying for the best and for the will of the Lord to manifest itself in our lives. I have hopes and dreams for my family but I know the Lord is in charge. All I can do is my best.

Situations like these take time. I have caused pain to people I love. One person in particular I love so much, and only time will tell. I am learning to try and take it one day at a time and do my best to WIN each day. In all reality, the only thing I can control is myself. Whenever you put yourself out there and come clean, there will obviously be a lot of backlash. Yes, if you make bad decisions, people will be hurt. You will inevitably suffer the consequences of your actions. It will be a long, painful, almost unbearable process to reclaim what you have lost and to get back to where you need to be. I have a long ways to go in this process still. But I will say this: IT IS WORTH IT. The time is now. If you are struggling with anything, large or small, get it out and start reclaiming your life. Although it is extremely painful and uncomfortable, you will feel empowered as you come clean and begin to change your life. Your Heavenly Father and loved ones are ready and waiting to help in the process. I cannot deny the love I have felt from Heavenly Father. He is so aware of me and He wants to bless and strengthen me. You will be amazed as you see the hand of the Lord in your life.

Is this the hardest and most difficult thing I can imagine? Is it a struggle that challenges me to the point of giving up? Can the temptations of addiction, thoughts of losing my family forever, pain of guilt, feelings of sorrow, and complete desperation, bring me to the breaking point? The answer is YES. But it brings me to my knees and is allowing for true change to happen. And like I said before IT IS WORTH IT. I don't know what the future holds but I know that through my honesty, obedience, and complete reliance on the Savior, everything can be made right again. TIME..........