Patience

Tonight is one of those nights I just can't get to sleep. So much on my mind. The battle that is waging inside my head is usually exhausting. But tonight it is keeping me up so I decided to write a quick post.

Patience is a virtue that I have trouble with. I am learning quickly that my time table for life is way off. I am struggling with an addiction that requires patience to overcome. I am facing a trial with my family that is so difficult I wish I could fall asleep until it was over. But what good would that do me? What would I learn? I know that I need to learn patience and put my complete trust in God. I have my hopes and desires that I plead with the Lord about every day. But more than anything I need to pray for patience and trust in the Lord. Patience allows us to endure our trials. Patience allows us to change. I pray everyday that I may be able to change and be the man that I know I can be and that those who love me need me to be.

I know that that God is watching over all of us. His son Jesus Christ suffered not only for our individual sins, but every temptation and trial we will ever have. How comforting is that! We just need to bear our trials with patience. And hope that the atonement can and will heal.

I will never give up. I will push forward. I have what it takes. I hope and pray those to whom I have caused pain may feel comfort in the Savior. I hope that someday, somehow, things may be restored through the atonement. I looked at Hallie and TyTy's faces today and I felt a deep sense of love and an inner desire to be the best I can be. Patience is the key..........