Will

Today in church we learned about miracles during Sunday School. We talked about the miracles the Savior performed during his ministry and how we can still witness miracles today. The most important principle of the gospel we need in order for miracles to happen is FAITH. I have been praying for miracles every day. Mainly I pray for the miracle of the atonement to manifest itself in my life as I go through the repentance process. Trying to change yourself as a person can be a miracle in and of itself. Sometimes getting out of bed or making it through a day of hardship can be a miracle. During the lesson today I started thinking about that and how everyday we can look back and find a miracle. And I'm sure there are miracles happening that I am not even aware of.

Sometimes we can get caught up in praying for miracles that just aren't happening in our desired timeframe. We pray and pray and never receive an answer. We feel so strongly about something but nothing is happening. Things may even worsen or completely change. I am realizing more and more that to really follow Christ one needs to align his will with the will of the Lord. That is something that requires a lot of faith because we don't know what the will of the Lord is for most circumstances. Faith requires us to take our current circumstances and place them before the Lord and say "Thy will be done". Our faith requires action and we can't just sit and wait, but we can be assured that if we put forth the action the Lord knows what is best for us and things will work out how they are supposed to.

I have gone through and continue to go through pain that is hard to describe. I have and always will own up to the mistakes that I have made. I am suffering consequences for MY actions. But I know that it is the will of the Lord for me to be happy. It is the will of the Lord for all of those affected to be happy. It is the will of the Lord for me not to be like Lot's wife and look to the past but to have faith in the future. We all can be happy no matter what mistakes we have made or what trial we are enduring. It is the will of the Lord for us to change, grow, and leave our pasts behind with hope for a better future. I know this to be true.