A New Beginning

Hello friends, family, and anyone that comes across this blog. Many of you who know me have a good idea of what is going on in my life and the events that have recently transpired. I decided to start this blog to share my experiences and to be as open and honest as I can be. I have been struggling with a pornography addiction since I was 10 years old. It has been a plague in my life that I have made many attempts at overcoming. Recently it has literally taken everything that I hold dear in my heart and everything that I truly have ever wanted: my family. I fully accept this as a consequence of my own actions and as something that is necessary as I go through the painful process of change. But it is time for me to once and for all put this behind me and have the change of heart and mind that is necessary to overcome addiction. I am at a point where I feel that the more open I can be about it the better my healing and change can be. I want to be able to share experiences and feelings.

This blog is, in a way, very selfish as it is something that I feel like will help me as I move through the repentance process. But I hope that in a small way, I might be able to help anyone that may be struggling with a similar trial or any trial for that matter. I have learned, over the last 3 months, that no matter the situation or trial we are facing, the Lord is willing and waiting to help. He loves us infinitely. I know that my trial is far from over, but I have felt God's love very strongly in my life. He is ready and waiting.

I want to apologize again to anyone who I have hurt because of my actions. I want people to know that I love my kids and I do love Kylee. I appreciate the support many of you have shown to her and the kids. And many people who have shown support and love to me. Thank you.

A scripture that I see everyday helps me as I move forward. In Philippians 4:13 the Apostle Paul said "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me"

I believe this to be true.