Finding The Way Back

http://lds.org/ensign/1990/05/finding-the-way-back?lang=eng

I highly recommend this talk for anyone struggling with an addiction or if you know of someone who is. Or if you have found yourself off the path and want to come back, this talk can really help.

One thing I have learned lately is that even through our biggest trials God wants us to be happy. He doesn't want us to live in despair and beat ourselves up for our mistakes. If we are honest with ourselves and others, we can truly feel joy amidst even the hardest trials. Throw in some acts of kindness and service and you will feel peace that you are doing the right thing and you are on the right path. Change is not easy, but like Elder Scott says in this talk, it is not as hard as we may think it is. We just need to make the leap.

I am very grateful for the people in my life and the opportunities that have been placed in front me. I know that if I can find my way back, then anyone can. The road is long and at times very difficult, but it is worth it. Keep fighting. We can all overcome ANYTHING with the Savior. I know this to be true.

Finding Hope

We all could use some more hope in our lives. As we move through life and struggle with our own trials and see the trials of others, we can have hope in the Savior and his healing power. I love this video and I watch it often to remind me that the "book of my life will exceed my grandest expectations" if I move forward with faith and hope in the future. I have made big mistakes in my life, but I can have hope in the Savior that I can someday be forgiven and find true happiness. Forgiveness is waiting for us all, we just need to have hope in the atonement of Jesus Christ. I HOPE for a brighter future. I HOPE for my children. I HOPE for all struggling with a trial. I HOPE for the ability to have the necessary faith to overcome and change. I know it can be done. I know it will be done. Have HOPE my friends.......I know this to be true

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UbsU3b2srQA

Craziness

Life is crazy. It is just plain crazy. But with all the craziness comes the reassurance that with the gospel of Jesus Christ we can make it. We can do it. We can find peace and calm amidst the turmoil. I am also grateful for the people in my life who are willing to share their lives with me to help me feel that peace. People who have come into my life and shown me what is really important. Shown me how to deal with the craziness and come out on top. I thank all of you for who you are and what you are doing. There are numerous people who don't even know the effect they have had on me and I thank you too. There are also those who know the help they have been to me and I thank you. Every day as I move forward I thank my Heavenly Father for the people in my life. I will be eternally grateful. I hope to be able to help you someday. I hope that someday my mistakes and my trial can help someone else.

There are so many amazing people around us. But sometimes, you have to get to KNOW someone to really appreciate them. Take the time to listen and learn about them. Listen to their experiences. See the good in them. Learn FROM them. Life is crazy for them too but in different ways and we can all learn from each other. That annoying person at work, the loud neighbor, or a difficult extended family member. These people who we think we can't approach. The people who come into our lives but we don't take the time to get to know. It is amazing what a simple conversation can start. A new friendship, a spiritual experience, or an answer to prayers. In a way, as God's children, we all NEED each other and God wants us to support each other. I have learned this a lot lately and it has affected my life very deeply. I have to be so much better at being approachable and getting to know people. We all have good, helpful hearts. So let's use them :)

To all the craziness, I say BRING IT! There is nothing we can't overcome. There is nothing that can stop us. If we take a look around and forget ourselves, we will see amazing people all around us. Many of us striving for the same things. Peace and happiness. I know that we have a Heavenly Father and a Savior who love us and want us to come unto them. We also have many people to help us and for us to help along the way. I know this to be true.

Children

Sunday night seems to be the best time for me to sit down and gather my thoughts from the last week. But today I am having a hard time pin-pointing exactly what I want to talk about so I'm just going to shoot from the hip and see what happens.

I was with my kids for the last few days and they always give me so many reasons to be grateful. We have a saturday morning tradition of pancakes and there is nothing like opening my eyes in the morning and seeing their faces staring at me and the first thing out of their mouths is "Daddy, we want pancakes!" Every Saturday. When I think of them and then think of going through a trial I begin to understand why it is so important that we become like little children. As a grown man I have the tendency to be prideful and selfish at times. In the past I have let pride and selfishness cause major problems in my life and in the lives of others. As humans we are so naturally inclined to be that way it takes a lot of hard work and consistency to not fall into that trap. I think the biggest reason why the Lord has taught us to be like little children is to help us as we encounter difficult situations. All of us will be confronted with trials. Death in the family, sin, disappointment and fear, sadness, financial issues, marital problems, and many others that can cause great sorrow and pain. But how will we react to these trials when they come? Will we be meek, humble, and willing to submit to the Lord? Or will we be prideful selfish, and without faith? Our reactions to the trials of life determine how we will make it through them.

I can't count the number of times my children have come to me looking for an answer or needing help with something. Our Father in Heaven wants us to do the same thing. He wants us to come to him in humility and ask for help. I know that if we can set aside our pride and selfishness and ask our Heavenly Father for help with a humble heart we can overcome anything. We all have it in us to be like a little child. We just need to reach down far enough and being willing to do whatever it takes.

I have made big mistakes in my life. I have been through and caused enormous amounts of pain. I admit my mistakes. I know that saying it doesn't mean much but it helps me. I know that Heavenly Father loves us all and that we all can change. We all can feel his love as we submit to his will. We are his children. We can make it through anything. No matter how hard it is or how much pain we are going through. No matter if it feels like there is no hope for you. No matter if you feel like you have been given your last chance. No matter if fear, disappointment, and pain feel as though they are going to drown you. We ALL can go to our Heavenly Father and be healed. We ALL can use the Atonement of Jesus Christ to overcome ANYTHING if we allow ourselves to be as a little child and with humility face our trials. I know that we are HIS children and that HE loves us with an infinite, eternal love. If you feel like you have nothing else, know that you have HIS love and HE will never forsake you. I know this to be true.

Charity

Ty turned 3 yrs. old today. It is crazy how fast time is flying by. I will be able to celebrate his birthday with him and Hallie tomorrow and I am looking forward to every second of it. My kids are my angels and they mean the world to me. I wouldn't be able to make it through this trial without my kids. But I also feel that I wouldn't be able to make it without the amazing friends that I have. There have been some unexpected people come into my life that have shown me love that I hope I can possess someday. They are filled with Christ's love and they are people who put others before themselves. They have been an example to me of what true friendship is and I am very grateful for that. So I want to talk a little bit about how they have affected my life and how I need to strive to put other people before myself, no matter the trial I am going through.

Today in sunday school we talked about the Sermon on the Mount. In so many of the Savior's teachings we learn about loving others, charity, service, and selflessness. We learn that we can find the purest joy through helping others. As I continue down the path of repentance and change I am continually amazed at the examples from people around me who possess these qualities. People who have come into my life and shown me what the pure love of Christ is all about. People who are able to look at my situation, look at my mistakes, and love me for who I am and who I can be. I am truly grateful for these people. I thank the Lord for them every day.

These friends have helped me realize how I can find happiness through helping others regardless of my current trial. President Monson has always preached that no matter the trial or difficulty we face, we can find joy through serving others. It is amazing how much peace can come to you when you set aside your own struggles and focus on other people. Even the most simple acts of kindness can bring great spiritual rewards. We are all children of God and we are all created in his image. We are all literal brothers and sisters. No wonder there is such a deep spiritual connection when we offer service to others. We are helping "family". No wonder the Lord tells us to love one another. We are all in this fight together. We can have profound impacts on each others lives through something as simple as saying hello, giving a hug, offering to help, going out of your way, listening to someone, praying for others, and the list goes on. I say this because I have FELT the impact of these simple acts in my life. I know what is like to have someone come up to you and shake your hand, look you in the eye, and say hello. Something that simple has meant the world to me. And I know that as I share other people's burdens, or look for opportunities to help, my burdens can become light.

We have such a great plan laid out in front of us. And I believe that a critical part of that plan is service and helping others. The great plan of happiness would not be if it weren't for this principle. I am going to strive to be better at helping others. I am going to strive to be less selfish. I am going to strive to put others before myself. I am so grateful for the friends and examples in my life. I am grateful for the acts of kindness that I have been blessed with. I know that charity towards others can bring us so much joy no matter the trial we face. I know this to be true.

Will

Today in church we learned about miracles during Sunday School. We talked about the miracles the Savior performed during his ministry and how we can still witness miracles today. The most important principle of the gospel we need in order for miracles to happen is FAITH. I have been praying for miracles every day. Mainly I pray for the miracle of the atonement to manifest itself in my life as I go through the repentance process. Trying to change yourself as a person can be a miracle in and of itself. Sometimes getting out of bed or making it through a day of hardship can be a miracle. During the lesson today I started thinking about that and how everyday we can look back and find a miracle. And I'm sure there are miracles happening that I am not even aware of.

Sometimes we can get caught up in praying for miracles that just aren't happening in our desired timeframe. We pray and pray and never receive an answer. We feel so strongly about something but nothing is happening. Things may even worsen or completely change. I am realizing more and more that to really follow Christ one needs to align his will with the will of the Lord. That is something that requires a lot of faith because we don't know what the will of the Lord is for most circumstances. Faith requires us to take our current circumstances and place them before the Lord and say "Thy will be done". Our faith requires action and we can't just sit and wait, but we can be assured that if we put forth the action the Lord knows what is best for us and things will work out how they are supposed to.

I have gone through and continue to go through pain that is hard to describe. I have and always will own up to the mistakes that I have made. I am suffering consequences for MY actions. But I know that it is the will of the Lord for me to be happy. It is the will of the Lord for all of those affected to be happy. It is the will of the Lord for me not to be like Lot's wife and look to the past but to have faith in the future. We all can be happy no matter what mistakes we have made or what trial we are enduring. It is the will of the Lord for us to change, grow, and leave our pasts behind with hope for a better future. I know this to be true.

Endure

I just got home from a late basketball game in Provo. It was snowing pretty bad and the roads were a mess so needless to say my trip home was slow. This gave me some time to ponder. Basketball has always been a release for me. A way for me to let out some stress and not think about things. I love the game and I always will but lately it has been less satisfying. My mind seems to haunt me even on the court. It's like I can't get a free moment without thinking about what I have done and the trial I am going through. Tonight as I was shooting a free throw I literally heard the voices of my kids in my head from this past weekend as we played together. As I sat on the bench I yearned for things to be different, for another chance at the life I once had. How can I possibly make it through this?

Driving down the icy road at 20 miles an hour made me think of my own life. Right now I am in the middle of a blizzard. I know my destination and I know how to get there but the journey will be slow and at times treacherous and difficult. The snow was swirling at hitting my vehicle from every direction and I thought of Satan and the trials in life as they swarm around us. I imagined my car as the "vehicle" that will get me to my eternal destination. I was warm and felt safe from the storm outside. I knew that if I endured the 20 mph drive home to Cedar Hills from Provo I would feel happy and safe when I got home. The vehicle that we all have to get us home is the Savior. His atoning sacrifice is the only way that we can safely make it back to our eternal home. Although the road my be slippery and dangerous or our vision may be blurred and the travel slow, we can be assured that if we endure it well and rely on the Savior we will return safely. It is so hard when the trial you are going through is self-inflicted. To know that you caused the blizzard and the swirling snow is at times an overwhelming burden. Then you add the avalanches from Satan and those people who want to bring you down and you can feel buried beneath a snow bank. With the help of the Savior and sincere honest prayer we can begin to dig ourselves out. And if we endure the pain and hurt, I know that we can unbury ourselves and we will feel the peace that comes from making it through a difficult time. Our Savior has endured every temptation and hardship we will ever face. He asks us to rely on him and endure to the end and to help others along the way.

I know that no matter what storm or blizzard comes our way, we can endure it with the Savior by our side. He is our vehicle. He is the answer. He is the only safe way. ANY trial that you are faced with can be overcome. I have a long journey ahead. We all have a long journey ahead of us. There is no way of predicting when the storms will come only that they WILL come at some point. Lay it at the feet of the Savior and endure to the end and we are promised peace and happiness in this life and in the life to come. I know this to be true.